So basically, I suck.
Feb. 2nd, 2003 12:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
regala_electraIt's a little bit funny...this feeling inside.
Whoops. Sorry. I saw Moulin Rouge this morning and now I can't stop from singing the songs in my head. Stupid crazy-ass guilty pleasure movie.
"I hope you know I...I hope you know I...that I wrote down in words. How wonderful life is now you're in the world."
Aww. True love forever. Not. :-)
Boring Personal Stuff Ahead:
I had this huge plan to lose thirty pounds by May and now, since it is Feb, I looked at my weight loss since Jan and it's only been 3 pounds. And I know that I want to get heathlier, hell, I'm one of the most famous diets (Weight Watchers), but then the carb-y foods come (mmm...tortillas..) and I start eating even though I'm not hungry.
The irony is that I don't think of myself as fat. And I did lose twenty-five pounds since mid-September, so hey, I can't suck that much.
It's just that I'm starting to go back into old habits and it's pissing me off. I don't want to eat, yet, it's so cold outside and there's nothing to do, so I end up sitting in the living room with something in hand, eating mindlessly.
*Bangs head into wall, "stop repeating patterns, stop it this instant!"*
School is going to be crazy for it and it's one of the reasons why I'm not making sure to eat more veggies and healthy stuff. If you're having lunch at school, the pizza is so much easier than the crappy already made salads. But...it's time for me to stop it and I hope that writing this down will remind me of what I really want to do.
I do feel a little better now, plus I exercised today with an intensive twenty minute dance routine, thus my muscles are aching and that's a good thing.
Now, if I can do all my homework for next week and finish that damn Wesley/Lilah fic, life will be good.
Whoops. Sorry. I saw Moulin Rouge this morning and now I can't stop from singing the songs in my head. Stupid crazy-ass guilty pleasure movie.
"I hope you know I...I hope you know I...that I wrote down in words. How wonderful life is now you're in the world."
Aww. True love forever. Not. :-)
Boring Personal Stuff Ahead:
I had this huge plan to lose thirty pounds by May and now, since it is Feb, I looked at my weight loss since Jan and it's only been 3 pounds. And I know that I want to get heathlier, hell, I'm one of the most famous diets (Weight Watchers), but then the carb-y foods come (mmm...tortillas..) and I start eating even though I'm not hungry.
The irony is that I don't think of myself as fat. And I did lose twenty-five pounds since mid-September, so hey, I can't suck that much.
It's just that I'm starting to go back into old habits and it's pissing me off. I don't want to eat, yet, it's so cold outside and there's nothing to do, so I end up sitting in the living room with something in hand, eating mindlessly.
*Bangs head into wall, "stop repeating patterns, stop it this instant!"*
School is going to be crazy for it and it's one of the reasons why I'm not making sure to eat more veggies and healthy stuff. If you're having lunch at school, the pizza is so much easier than the crappy already made salads. But...it's time for me to stop it and I hope that writing this down will remind me of what I really want to do.
I do feel a little better now, plus I exercised today with an intensive twenty minute dance routine, thus my muscles are aching and that's a good thing.
Now, if I can do all my homework for next week and finish that damn Wesley/Lilah fic, life will be good.
Mmmmm, food
Date: 2003-02-02 02:00 pm (UTC)I plan on indulging myself a bit on Thursday, cereal for breakfast, chips and salsa for lunch, and maybe I can con my mom into making her meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Mmmmmmm. And yes, when you can't go outside, it's hard not to eat. But you know you're going to do this, so buy something you can eat a lot of that you like, but won't hurt you. There are these chocolate rice cakes that kick ass by Quaker Oats. Mmmmm. Or on weight watchers, I know you can have a whole bag of the low fat popcorn. Which I love by the way. Get a bag of baby carrots. That way, you're satisfying that need you feel to eat, but it's things that you can have without putting on the weight.
Maybe you could start taking a lunch with you. Take an apple, banana, and maybe a turkey sandwich on that light wheat bread. I know you don't like mayo, but maybe a bit of mustard or something.
Ah....the fun that is dieting. And yay for exercise! Walking is always a good one. It's actually better for your body than running, especially on the knees. And man, I think I did a pretty good job of pretending I knew what I was talking about. :-)