mother freller

Ever get to a point where you're no longer sleepy? It's 4:30AM and I only had about six hours of sleep on Friday and now it's Sunday morning and I'm still up and yeah.

Not so much with the sleepy.

And I'm a terrible napper. I wake up pissed off whenever I attempt to nap.

Also, I just realized, that among the many stories and WIPs I had on my former departed laptop, I fucking lost my messed up Farscape story abount unrealized realities, written in future tense.

Motherfucker. I loved that story. I spent ages on that story.

And I fucking lost my only record of it. Apparently, I never posted it to my lj. Fuckity fuck.

I curse, so that I might not cry. Some of my most favorite lines EVER written are in that goddamn story.

Frell.

"She turned me into a newt!...I got better."

I'm probably messing that line up. I expect someone to correct it.

So, last night. Got exactly four hours of sleep between 5 AM and 9 AM-ish. Lovely.

After going through all my lj posts (Jesus I am whiny) back from the very beginning, I only found one reference to posting the Lost Fic, redefining the universe. And I didn't. Of course.

So this morning, my brain, still sort of running on fumes, goes, "hey, isn't there like a back up CD that was made of your old laptop files over a year ago?"

And yes there is.

Only it is missing. Fuck. Tore apart my room looking for it. No sign of it. Fantabulous.

However, I did find some old hard disks (floppies) under my glass table/book-shelf-by-proxy. And I actually labelled some of them, which is hilarious because I rarely remember to label shit. And one of them? "Fic: redefining the universe."

One problem of course.

We have four computers in the house: 3 laptops and a home computer. Guess what they don't have? That's right, a drive for diskettes.

So now I have to figure out how the hell I can get this fic out of the disk, even if it's an old copy, it's at least something and I can work from it.

And I don't even know if it's going to be workable because I haven't used this disk in nearly two years.

Still.

There's hope.

Just no way of opening it.

ETA: adrenya is awesome and corrected me. It's newt, not squirrel. Heh.